faith as a mustard seed

She's gone. I didn't know her personally although I am an acquaintance with some of her sisters and her mother. Her family has asked for prayers for her immediate physical resurrection. As a parent, I have a pit in my stomach, just a fraction of what they must be feeling. As a parent, I know I would want my daughter to rise to life again. I've never prayed such a bold prayer before in my life. Do I believe God could raise someone from the dead? Yes, God is God. Could I pray that prayer with full belief that He will raise her from the dead? I don't know, I just don't know. Then again, what is there to loose? If I pray for her to be raised from the dead, that is an exercise of my faith. I am stretching my current faith to be larger than it is daily comfortablity factor.

It makes me think of when I was pregnant and I had to decide whether or not for God to heal my unborn baby baby before she was born. I ended up praying for her healing but I also was prepared for what might be, if His choice was to allow her born with defects. I guess that is my prayer for this young lady as well. Lord, heal her body, please restore her to live on our Earth. But if you choose to keep her in heaven with you, comfort her family, her friends, our church.
Help us come to terms with such a beautiful young lady taking her own life. Help us find You in this unthinkable situation. May You be glorified in this. "I'll praise you in this storm!"